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The conscious thoughts of the bodies on this planet oversee the energy of this solar system

“If we all had the quality of our lives as our first priority, the earth would not need to make the changes that it is making in the present, such as clearing the planet of people by earthquakes etc. The earth is a living organism and it is about to assert itself and free itself of people who do not love themselves. They judge themselves and everything, therefore they do not respect earth.” – Annette Noontil.

I find this quote (taken from The Body is the Barometer of the Soul) to hold a lot of truth. It is evident to me that our planet is in  desperate need of healing.

Many choices are made aligned with the ego (or the devil or fear or whatever you would like to name it): blame, guilt, anger, vengeance, shame. And the majority of the time, the perpetrator isn’t aware of the origin of their behavior. For example one may think that stopping a loved one from doing something they don’t agree with is love, but a lot of the time it is actually fear of the consequences (of losing them etc. ). Some do not see the selfishness of vengeance and blame and guilt. Yet they see loving yourself as selfish when in reality, you cannot love others until you love yourself. You cannot help others until you help yourself.

Addiction is a big part of the ego. We spend so much time and money and energy fulfilling ourselves with the physical world, yet few of us are aware that you will never be satisfied.

Sex, drugs, alcohol, tv, comfort food, relationships; these are just a few things we use and abuse. Even as I am writing this I am chomping away at a block of chocolate way past the point where my body has gotten all that it needs from it. I am now abusing myself because I am addicted to this substance that I believe will add more enjoyment to me. But it never does.

This is the ego. It tricks you into thinking that it will provide you with everything you ever wanted and needed but somehow you never reach the point of complete satisfaction. It keeps you on your toes, gnawing for more and more.

However, if we turn inwards into our divine selves, our soul, we start to realize that we are filled with love, light, peace and joy. It is an abundant, never ending supply. This is because it is sourced from the spirit (or God, if that rolls with you better). My friends, you will surely find satisfaction here.

This place is difficult to find and keep. As they say, it is a narrow road and few may enter. However, seek and you shall find.

I believe whole heartedly that addiction can be cured. I know that it can, if you are willing to let go of the ego. I know people who were alcoholics, drug addicts, criminals and have been released from their prison (which, may I add, is all mental).

So if we are to heal the world, we must heal ourselves first. Love ourselves first. Help ourselves first.

Wouldn’t it be amazing if we made enough room on that narrow road so that everyone could walk down it together?

Creating your vision

I have been completing a course based on A Course In Miracles for the last month and wanted to share the exercise for today. It will take some time, but it is definitely worth it!

I just spent 30 minutes or so typing away at whatever came up for me, without judging it or sorting through it. I just typed the words as they came to me. And I was amazed at what I came up with! I had no idea I could write a whole page.

If you let yourself be completely vulnerable then you will get a lot more out of this exercise. Good luck 🙂

“1. LISTEN TO MY VOICE: Be still. Rest in God, and listen to what A Course in Miracles calls “my voice” – the voice of Jesus, the voice of your Christ Mind. Think about what you would love to do. What brings you joy? Listen in stillness for Divinely Inspired Ideas for what would make you happy. With these things in mind, write down a Vision for your life – about a page – a specific description of your life, with you doing exactly what you have always wanted to do, as if its happening now. 

Write it in “I AM” language as if you are doing it now or have done it. “I love my life. I am … “

2. LEARN TO UNDO ERROR: See if there is any resistance, fear or blocks getting in the way of you living this life. What stories or excuses are coming up for you (if any) that are keeping you from being truly alive, doing what you love right now?

3. DO SOMETHING TO CORRECT THE ERROR: Take a step, an action, that proves that the error/the block cannot hold you back. Do something to correct the error, to dissolve the fear and live this life starting now. Do it today. Pick up your bed and walk. “

– Lisa Natoli

Dear God

I am grateful for..

The basic gifts that my parents have given me; food, water, shelter, and love

The colour that my brothers bring to my life. How I can laugh, play, and dance worrylessly and in total joy with them. How they love me and take care of me and how I can be their friend.

My Job; to have an income no matter how small

My country; the clear and relatively unpolluted air. No major natural disasters, war or legal guns, however imperfect we are as a nation.

Support in my spiritual life – or else I would give up on being me and my life would be normal.

My gifts.

My material possessions, however unnecessary.

Healthy food and lifestyle options

A good education.

Friends who care about me and enjoy sharing with me. Who I can counsel, encourage, teach, and inspire. Who I share an understanding with.

Michael, however absurd our situation, for his love, joy and peace. For his understanding and generosity and encouragement.

James, for his fearless take on life, his inspiration and support and understanding.

Laura, for showing me what it’s like to have a sister.

My visions and inspirations for the future.


And most of all, God. With all his grace, love and peace. His loving hand, his wise words, his great plan. His creation and everything else that is beyond my comprehension. For giving me life, for giving me reason to be grateful. Thank you Lord, I love you. I am truly blessed

META Health

It’s not about returning to how it was, it’s about creating your life to be greater” – Adam Oldmeadow

For the last two days I have been hidden in a cave – a dark, warm, loving room with a very welcoming and open-hearted atmosphere; sharing knowledge and inspiration with the most amazing people. Formally known as a MetaHealth Introductory course.

I must say out of all the courses I have done in the past year – this one resonated with me the most. Everything that came up really struck a chord with me – whether it be my beliefs, past experience, or how I can apply the knowledge practically. And besides the wonderful content – it is the people and the atmosphere that made it.

Experiences are very hard to recreate in words – giving aural, visual, tactile imagery can not accurately reproduce the moment. However – I will try my best to set the scene for you.

Imagine stepping into a different world at the start of your day – a different dimension maybe. The rigid social structures of our society do not exist, there is no judgement of any of God’s children, everyone is equal and although they may not nessecarily know each other, they have a deep connection.

Compassion and love are very prominent in this environment – expressed by the heart and opening perceived and received by people within the field. Many connections are formed at a deeper level – resulting in understanding on more levels than the more obvious or superficial. It’s similar to having realisations or epiphanies or sudden understanding and wisdom of a situation – but more frequent. It was like not only my mind and emotions were satisfied – but my soul too. And although my body wasn’t focused on as much, it suited my situation because I have glandular fever and cannot take on anything too strenuous anyway.

At the end of this day – you open the curtains, open the door, step out of the cave and realise that there is a physical world out there. A world that has continued on living despite the revelations that are occurring in your head. A world full of beauty and you become grateful of this. You step outside and the gentle breeze whispers in your ear, the sun kisses your cheek. You start to mobilise your limbs and bring yourself back to the physical world where you can bring all of your revelations into action.

This is the world that I have entered the last two days. Learning the holistic perspective on health and illness, incorporating mind, body, spirit, social and environmental levels of disease. How traumatic moments in our lives can manifest themselves in our mind, body, and spirit and store as energy on all levels creating illness. How amazing our body is that we have all of these natural processes to help up thrive and survive, that when our survival is threatened we make physiological changes in order to be able to deal with the situation better the next time. I learnt how important our heart is in perceiving and receiving information – even before it has come to our conscious awareness.

Most of all I learnt that we will not change until we believe that the pain and discomfort of change is less than the pain and discomfort in our current situation.

I would to thank my Meta-Heath coach Adam Oldmeadow for creating such an inspirational, electric, and caring environment to learn in, and for helping me to understand health in a greater way.

The Rose

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender redd.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you its only seed.
It’s the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It’s the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It’s the one who won’t be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dying
that never seems to live.
When the night has been too loney
and the road has been too long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter
far benneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with sun’s love
in the spring becomes the rose.
– Leann Rime

One of life’s biggest mentors

” A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A water-logged stick will do just fine. A dog judges other not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn’t care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and his will give you his” – John Grogan

This quote says it all beautifully, could not have said it better myself. There is something about a dog – or at least the ones that have been in my in my life. Apologies to all those non-dog lovers out there. You may want to stop reading now!

I have grown up alongside Labradors. Always proving to be my best friend. It is not just their loyalty, or the way that their eyes tell me that they know. They can be much more than this. A dog can serve as a mentor. They are the best kind of teachers because they do not communicate via words – but rather a very unique language. One that stays with you forever.

I would struggle to name one human being who can do this. Yes, dogs, in particular Labradors, can destroy furniture, eat shoes, jump on you, hump you, swim in puddles, rip your shoulder from it’s socket, bite you (ever so lovingly), pee on your neighbour, and run into doors. I must say, if you need to make me smile just put my dog in front of me and he is sure to do something silly. And the joy that it gives me and the urge that I get to smile is unbearable.

I have not had a greater teacher in my life who has shown me how to enjoy the moment. How to truly love someone regardless of their looks, age, circumstances, faith, attitude. Maybe its the human consciousness that causes us to judge so frequently.

Dogs have the purest intentions towards us. I’ve learnt that after my dog tries to play fight with me (which involved a lot of biting, scratching and rolling over), he immediately licks my hand in apology – realising that I am not a fellow dog. Yes, my dogs have never been perfect. They never will be. But the lessons that I have and continue to learn from them are phenomenal. How much joy you can receive from a visit to the park, how exciting it is to see someone when they walk through the door, how to let go of being judged and be silly instead, how to triage your attention when there are numerous people in the room (this is an important one), how to express oneself through body language, how to forgive without an apology or explanation.

I have lost one dog to cancer. I was young and scared and chose not to stay with him until his very last moment. Something I regret until this day – because I know that he would have been there for me no matter what. He was there for me no matter what. My mother said something to me today – that on his last day with us she took him to the park and sat next to him. She said he just looked at her as if he knew.

Puppy if you are up there and you can see me right now – I want you to know that I’m sorry for not having the strength to be with you. You are the closest thing to me that I’ve lost. And I know that you will forgive me for this. If you are watching, this one’s for you:

His big brown eyes melted my heart,

to call him adorable was just a start.

As he grew, he began to chew

I thought I would be left without a shoe

and that’s an understatement too.

His stomach was a bottomless pit

there was nothing he couldn’t fit

in his doo-doo could be found something new

to love food you have to commit.

His gigantic paws weighed more than his head

but after a while the weight spread.

His tail was a Ping-Pong ball, bouncing back and forth

one in a million times it would point north.

His golden ears were as soft as snow

a scratch behind them would cause a moan

scratch him more to hear a groan

to this he would never say no.

Friendly, understanding, and extremely loving

when you called his name you could hear him coming

The patter of his paws coming towards the door

was followed with a whining roar

come outside to stroke his hide

as he brushes by your side.

He was as naughty as a selfish kid with cake

but still adorable for goodness sake.

In his moments of freedom he would leap and bound

his ears would flap around

he was as fast as a rocket,

hide your BBQ, he might knock it!

He was as carefree as a flag in the wind

you played with him and he never gave in

he was as predictable as what I wear to school

he was always happy to play the fool.

He was hopeless with fetch, for that I’m sure

he thought it was a game of tug-of-war.

As vicious as a butterfly and as oblivious as a bee

if he wanted something he would simply nudge your knee.

After meeting him, people raved and ranted

maybe it was the way he playfully cantered

Although they didn’t see him rip up the rose I planted.

As the waves at the beach lap at my heels

they remind me of his loyalty

This, I thought, would never yield.

Love you pal. From 15-year-old me to you and your beautiful soul. RIP Max

My Companion

My Companion

Sometimes, when I cannot sleep,
I descend the dark stairs
And sit by his side.
For I know he will always wake for me.

I will place myself in front of him
On the stone cold ground.
He will look deep into my eyes
and ask me what’s wrong –
twitching those magnificent eyebrows of his.

He will provide me with warmth,
and lick my hand.
I will smile at him and send him my love.
Telling him how beautiful his soul is.
I will breathe in the fresh crisp air
and marvel at the beauty of the world.

And although no words are spoken,
He is my best friend,

my Companion

Lesson of the Day: Look Internally Part II

Lately I’ve fallen into a trap where I find myself relying on others for support. I’ve created an illusion that this will provide me happiness and peace with my life. Having been through a few men this past year (and even in previous relationships) and cursing myself for it, I tried a different approach.

Last night I was lying in bed crying, asking myself what is it that’s inside of me that constantly drives me to this state? How do I end up becoming so attached to a person and subconsciously depending on them for my happiness? So that when all is done and dusted, I’m left with one less piece of myself. After bursting out into another round of tears (and another, and another) I finally found some strength within myself.

Earlier on that day I was with a friend. One who, in my eyes, is the most pure and honest example of an angel on earth (if example’s can be honest?). Whoever decided that I am worthy enough to call her a friend is an absolute god. I seriously cannot express how amazingly strong she is (let alone intelligent, you should see her grades!). So in my moment of distress, I thought about my friend. How she never is swayed by love, or sex, or relationships, or any sort of attachment what-so-ever. My mind flicked back to a conversation we had earlier on that day, and it hit me. She doesn’t search outside of herself for these things. This kind of fulfilment lies within us. My friend also has faith in god, that he will always be by her side.

When I was younger I used to think that religion was a stupid idea – to put it plainly. I thought that it was for the weak – an imagined explanation as to why we are on earth so that we feel we have security and direction in life, and we are not simply a product of science, evolution, and chance. But now I see differently. It is those who believe in something or someone beyond who are strong. To believe in something without proof that it exists, but only intuition and experience, is strength.

I’m not saying that god does exist (that’s an argument for another time), but those who believe in something beyond themselves are more likely to find peace.

So back to my story, I found strength in my friend. In my bed, I started to talk to god (and no, I’m not crazy). I soon realised that it was not the relationships that were the problem, it was me. And if I were to be truly happy for the rest of my life, regardless of who was supporting and interacting with me externally, I had to be my own best friend.

Another friend pointed this out to me a few months back. He was my mentor and taught me new things every day about personal development. He once told me that he was going to become his own best friend, because that way he wouldn’t need anyone else no matter what happened. At the time I just quietly nodded my head and smiled, not realising the significance of the words he had spoken. It was not until I had experience this myself that I found value in the idea.


So today I have woken up on the right side of the bed and stepped on the sunny side of the street. I have amazed myself at how resilient I have become. And this amazement has created a state of ecstasy inside of me (who needs drugs?). I am convinced that Seasonal Affective Disorder exists, because everyone I have met today seems to share my drug. This positive attitude has already started to create so many more possibilities in my life. A simple example I would like to share is when I went to the Physiotherapist this morning. I started a conversation with the receptionist on the way out, inquiring about business cards for personal training and group exercise on the desk. Our conversation ended up in me possibly having a future job at the clinic. Even if this plan doesn’t actualise, the possibility is still there. I knew there was a reason why I hurt my shoulder!

After announcing to yet another one of my friends yesterday (yes, another friend) that I was going to create a pact with myself that would prevent me from getting hurt again and throwing myself into uncomfortable positions, I updated her on my thoughts:

“I’m not creating a pact because I’ve realised that from everything I go through, I am constantly learning. And from these experiences I can also help others, which is what creates the ultimate happiness for me. What’s the point of life if you do not grow, learn and adjust? I’ve amazed myself at how mature and resilient I’ve become, but I’m also not going to stop acting like a kid at times (e.g dancing in shopping centres as if it were my private studio) because I don’t get that extra joy. Lesson learnt.”

My friend, who is a couple of years younger than me, replied “EXACTLY! You’re a brilliant role model because you don’t do what is socially expected, you do whatever you want because it makes you happy. And that’s what I want to be like. Don’t ever doubt yourself or limit yourself because you’re perfect just the way you are”.

So to repeat my previous post on this topic:

We are constantly looking for external sources in our lives that will provide us with satisfaction. Whether it be money, love, or comfort. We all have the capability to fulfil these needs ourselves. Looking externally will not end in peace because we are constantly searching for something that is not a part of us to complete ourselves. We all have the strength to be at peace with ourselves if we recognise that this peace lies within us.

Don’t ever underestimate your own strength!


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Two worlds.

Two very different worlds.

One – where I once was

One – where I would like to be.


The ashamedness I experienced

– why?

for this is only being ashamed of who i aspire to be.

Is it real?


No I believe it’s a lie.


Why should I be forced to think, feel and act in this manner?

This – I cannot answer

But something stops me.

Something holds me back.

Some sort of –

Some sort of attachment.




Yes love, that’s it

But is that all?

Sorrow? Sympathy?


The power of choice overwhelms me.

Now it is up to me

My beliefs

What I have grown to know.


Which path is right?

To go against all that I have been shown?

To place faith in my colours?


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