Dear God

I am grateful for..

The basic gifts that my parents have given me; food, water, shelter, and love

The colour that my brothers bring to my life. How I can laugh, play, and dance worrylessly and in total joy with them. How they love me and take care of me and how I can be their friend.

My Job; to have an income no matter how small

My country; the clear and relatively unpolluted air. No major natural disasters, war or legal guns, however imperfect we are as a nation.

Support in my spiritual life – or else I would give up on being me and my life would be normal.

My gifts.

My material possessions, however unnecessary.

Healthy food and lifestyle options

A good education.

Friends who care about me and enjoy sharing with me. Who I can counsel, encourage, teach, and inspire. Who I share an understanding with.

Michael, however absurd our situation, for his love, joy and peace. For his understanding and generosity and encouragement.

James, for his fearless take on life, his inspiration and support and understanding.

Laura, for showing me what it’s like to have a sister.

My visions and inspirations for the future.


And most of all, God. With all his grace, love and peace. His loving hand, his wise words, his great plan. His creation and everything else that is beyond my comprehension. For giving me life, for giving me reason to be grateful. Thank you Lord, I love you. I am truly blessed

You can either be a host to your God or a hostage to your ego” – Wayne Dyer

Walk of Life

BeachscapeSometimes I find myself walking on sand. My grounding beneath my feet crumbles away making it hard to take a step forward.

It is a struggle at first but after a while I forget what it’s like to walk on sturdy ground. If I am lucky I may temporarily come across a patch of firm sand. Here I can balance myself easier – it comes as a relief. I find it easier to take a step forward. I no longer slip as far backwards as I push-off.

Every now and then I may encounter some quicksand. You cannot see it coming but you step right into the midst of it. Maybe one day I will learn to recognise these areas in my walk and choose a different path.

I am forever waiting for the day that I reach the pavement. I hope it will come soon. Maybe someone will guide me there. I will realise how strong I have become. How my mind and body have adapted to the challenge to make me well equipped for my next journey. How my spirit has emerged surrounded by an intense light that radiates as I walk.

I will no longer be focused on moving one foot in front of the other. I will be able to spare some awareness for the beauty surrounding me. I can feel and taste and touch again. I can expand my consciousness to perceive greater things.

And maybe – I can assist others in finding the pavement too.

Please Pray for Me

IMG_6157After spending the last year fumbling around with my life and not moving forward, I have finally achieved some sort of direction for the new year. Nonetheless, I have learnt many valuable things on my journey this year; about myself, and the world we live in, the lives we live. I have made some profound self-discoveries and personal developments equipping me to live a fulfilled life. I have no doubt that this will continue through my many years to come.

Even though I have not achieved anything in the material sense this year – the lessons that I have learnt, the things that I have been awakened to, the experiences I have had, the people I have met, and the moments I have shared, have been invaluable.

The biggest lesson I have learnt is to always stay true to yourself. Trust in your intuition and you will have a fulfilling life. This has got me so many times because my head is telling me that logically, I am crazy when I want to follow my heart. I had to learn how to let go and let God.

I have a lot of people looking at my decision-making and wondering why I would choose the path I choose. If it is not for you – good – that’s because the path is true for me and now you. If you find yourself wanting to be on the same path – what are you waiting for? Why stay where you are when you could be out there following your dreams?

This is what all of the movies teach us. There is no time like the present. Go out and follow your dreams. Or even things like – don’t let your love of your life go just because life is getting in the way. Love is greater than that. We get all hyped up on this message but it is short-lived.

Why do so few people follow their dreams? Because they are imprisoned by fear. If we come to the realisation that we have nothing to fear in life – that we are only spiritual beings here for a human experience – that is when we are free. What kind of experience is it when we do what others expect of us? If we constantly struggle to be our true selves and go on an adventure. Whatever it may be that resonates with you. Do not fear – it is your worse enemy.

A person will only change when they recognise that the pain and discomfort of change is less than the pain and discomfort of their current situation.

My biggest struggle this year has been between my head and my heart. My head has been conditioned with a whole rainbow of perceptions, beliefs, and judgements. I found that if I unlearn these, I will find the truth within me. I have just been blinded from it. This is such a beautiful thing to discover.

My heart is aligned with the truth. It cannot be wavered by other’s advice and opinions and expectations of how I should govern myself. Not even my own. It knows exactly where I am going, exactly how to follow my dreams. All I need to trust in it and enjoy the journey. It has taken me almost a whole year for this lesson to manifest deep within me and now I am finally putting it into practice.

I have had older persons give me advice based on their experience and expect me to take it all and follow it. I have told them that there are some things that I need to learn the hard way. What is life without challenges? So far I have gone through seemingly unscathed. For me, there is a line to be drawn where I do things perfectly for the first time. Too many times I learnt from other’s mistakes. How am I supposed to grow if I do not make my own? I find it hard to get across to people that my life is about my human experience, not theirs.

The more I am true to myself – the closer I come to the spirit and the more I know that what I am doing is the right thing to do. Not based on tangible things or justifiable reasons. These things do not need to be proven by sight, hearing, feeling, taste, and touch. I do not need to map out a logical argument to know that it is the path that I should take. I know that if it is aligned with my heart – I do not need to justify my choices. They are mine and they make sense to me.

Please pray for me.

META Health

It’s not about returning to how it was, it’s about creating your life to be greater” – Adam Oldmeadow

For the last two days I have been hidden in a cave – a dark, warm, loving room with a very welcoming and open-hearted atmosphere; sharing knowledge and inspiration with the most amazing people. Formally known as a MetaHealth Introductory course.

I must say out of all the courses I have done in the past year – this one resonated with me the most. Everything that came up really struck a chord with me – whether it be my beliefs, past experience, or how I can apply the knowledge practically. And besides the wonderful content – it is the people and the atmosphere that made it.

Experiences are very hard to recreate in words – giving aural, visual, tactile imagery can not accurately reproduce the moment. However – I will try my best to set the scene for you.

Imagine stepping into a different world at the start of your day – a different dimension maybe. The rigid social structures of our society do not exist, there is no judgement of any of God’s children, everyone is equal and although they may not nessecarily know each other, they have a deep connection.

Compassion and love are very prominent in this environment – expressed by the heart and opening perceived and received by people within the field. Many connections are formed at a deeper level – resulting in understanding on more levels than the more obvious or superficial. It’s similar to having realisations or epiphanies or sudden understanding and wisdom of a situation – but more frequent. It was like not only my mind and emotions were satisfied – but my soul too. And although my body wasn’t focused on as much, it suited my situation because I have glandular fever and cannot take on anything too strenuous anyway.

At the end of this day – you open the curtains, open the door, step out of the cave and realise that there is a physical world out there. A world that has continued on living despite the revelations that are occurring in your head. A world full of beauty and you become grateful of this. You step outside and the gentle breeze whispers in your ear, the sun kisses your cheek. You start to mobilise your limbs and bring yourself back to the physical world where you can bring all of your revelations into action.

This is the world that I have entered the last two days. Learning the holistic perspective on health and illness, incorporating mind, body, spirit, social and environmental levels of disease. How traumatic moments in our lives can manifest themselves in our mind, body, and spirit and store as energy on all levels creating illness. How amazing our body is that we have all of these natural processes to help up thrive and survive, that when our survival is threatened we make physiological changes in order to be able to deal with the situation better the next time. I learnt how important our heart is in perceiving and receiving information – even before it has come to our conscious awareness.

Most of all I learnt that we will not change until we believe that the pain and discomfort of change is less than the pain and discomfort in our current situation.

I would to thank my Meta-Heath coach Adam Oldmeadow for creating such an inspirational, electric, and caring environment to learn in, and for helping me to understand health in a greater way.


Thank-you to the wonderful Clarissa who has nominated me for the 2013 Blog of the Year award! It is an absolute honour and – must I say – surprise to have received this. The first time I met Clarissa I thought that she had commented on one of my posts “You’re just a dumbass” until I realised that this was actually the name of her blog. Whoops. Well – I am glad that I visited it in the end because what she has to say is truly inspiring and can always put a smile to my face.  Please pay a visit to her blog because her stories, lessons, and advice are well worth it.

The ‘rules’ for this award are simple:

  1. Select another blog(s) who deserve the award;
  2. Write a blog post and tell us about the blog(s) you have chosen – there’s no minimum or maximum number of blogs required – and ‘present’ them with their award;
  3. Include a link back to this page ‘Blog of the Year 2013’ Award and provide these ‘rules’ in your post (please don’t alter the rules or the badges!)
  4. Let the blog(s) you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the ‘rules’ with them
  5. You can now also join our Facebook group – click ‘like’ on this page ‘Blog of the Year 2013’ Award Facebook group and then you can share your blog with an even wider audience.
  6. As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…

This is in no ranked order. I admire and am inspired by them all equally. The list of my nominees are:

Be the awareness…

“Be aware of the thoughts you are thinking. Separate them from the situation, which is always neutral, which always is as it is. There is the situation or the face, and here are my thoughts about it. Instead of making up stories, tay with the facts. For example, “I am ruined” is a story. It limits you and prevents you from taking effective action. “I have fifty cents left in my bank account” is a fact. Facing facts is always empowering. Be aware that what you think, to a large extent, creates the emotions you feel. See the link between your thinking and your emotions. Rather than being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them” – Eckhart Tolle

The Rose

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender redd.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
and you its only seed.
It’s the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It’s the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It’s the one who won’t be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dying
that never seems to live.
When the night has been too loney
and the road has been too long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter
far benneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with sun’s love
in the spring becomes the rose.
– Leann Rime